This is the side of creativity (and life) that nobody likes. It's why I get all squirmy when someone asks me how my writing is going. The truth is that there are always a lot of bad batches along the way. Cookies and manuscripts I'd rather toss in the trash than share. There's a lot of failure that goes on behind the scenes in my job. And I've learned that's not such a bad thing.
Actually, it's probably the best medicine God's ever given me. We live in a culture that's all about getting it right, and more importantly, being right. This culture, unfortunately, isn't relegated to one nation or religious group. It's everywhere. Sam's Kosovar students are often at the point of physical arguments over rightness. If my Facebook newsfeed is any indication, Americans are on a similar page. And if I hear one more Christian say, "The Bible clearly says _____" to defend their rightness, I might just cry.
I know that I'm not always right. I have the failures to prove it.
Whew, and amen.
Outside all the achieving and being right, there's so much peace. When we're no longer competing for our own glory, zinging each other with facts and verses, we can gaze upon the One who's had the glory the whole time. The one who's been right the whole time. The one who's already finished the job, achieved it all: Jesus.
I get along so much better when I let God do the working and when I let Him have all the knowledge. Because even when I fail, his glory and his power don't diminish. His plans don't stop with my mistakes. They march right ahead, working with me and in me. And as I surrender to humility, they can do more and more.
I don't wish failure upon anyone, but I do pray that we would see our limitations, and that we would learn to trust the God who says, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
In His grace,
PS: If you're still drooling over the cookies from the beginning (I know I am), the Brownie Cookie recipe will be up on Awaken's website soon!